I guess… I guess it’s time to grow up…

 Ever since I turned the big three-oh back in January, I have noticed a LOT of major changes in myself:

1.      I no longer play or crave to play video games as much as I used to.
2.      I no longer prefer cold, dreary weather; I long for the sun.
3.      I have switched from white wines to the deep dry red ones.
4.      I no longer want to buy and collect toys.  Matter of fact I have quite a few looking for a good home.  I might sell them on eBay or if any of you want them, give me a shout.
5.      I bought a suit.  ME!  A SUIT!  And I must say, I look damn good!  ^_^  I wanna buy more awesome clothes, especially since I've dropped quite a bit of weight.
6.      I no longer want to wear my earrings or my Smith & Wesson handcuff key necklace.
7.      Gonna start working out and taking care of myself, again.
8.      Gonna actually TRY to start saving money instead of just saying that I am.
9.      I actually want to try to get a car, like, ASAP.

This was literally an overnight change.  I don’t know what has happened with the old Brad, the perpetual big kid, but I hope he’s doing well.  Right now I emerge as the new Brad, the responsible adult who wants more out of life.  This is kind of a disappointing change since I said that I’d never grow up.  I feel like I let old Brad down.  It’s also a terrifying experience since this new lifestyle and yearnings are completely foreign to me.  I seriously don’t know who I am right now… and that’s some scary shit.  O_O

I suddenly feel the urge to bust out in Bowie's "Changes". >_<

A Text with Arielle

Brad: Bored now... >_<

Arielle: Sorry?

Brad: Well, entertain me!  Put the funnies in my ear hole and make the ha-has come out of my mouth hole!

Arielle: Um, that sounds so fucking bizarre.

Brad: Bizarre... or hilarious?!  ^_^

02-20-2010 aka A Day of Malls, Gum, and Bugs

So, I lied.  I'm back way sooner than I thought I'd be.  Don't worry, I'm fine.  Sometimes ya gotta hit rock bottom so you can have something to stand on as you pull yourself back up.  ^_^

A day out with the girls, April & Steph!  Full of shopping, big wads of gum, and edible bug treats!  ^_^  I know it's long, but it's hard to concentrate a whole day in ten minutes.  It's just a whirlwind trip out of the house with me and the girls.

Also, no, it is not in HD.  I decided to stick with standard definition after I almost blew-up my poor old PC trying to encode the other HD videos, but even then, this camera is still better than my last one.  :-P

Enjoy and comment!  ^_^

Oh, and new pic time!  ^_^

P.S. I LOVE this still frame of the video! ^_^

Sorry!

I know it has been a while since my last post, and it might be a bit longer.  I do have a video that I need to edit, but life has thrown a fruit stand full of nothing but lemons at me and I have to deal with it.  Since I do not believe in getting too personal in my blogs/vlogs I'm afraid that I may be taking a break of undetermined length from being online.  I will miss this and I hope you miss me, but I really need some time to myself.  I'm sure you understand.

See you peeps after the great murk.  Love you all.

02-21-2010 aka Brad Opens Up & Gets Real

Just opening up and being honest about religion, dreams, and premonitions.  This is me at my most real and raw... and not just because I JUST woke up.  :-P 

I also figured it would be best to not edit it and show the true me, so I apologize for the length of the video and the multiple parts.  I also find it hard to form my thoughts on the spot, that's why I'm a better writer.  Plus, like I said, just woke up!  :-P

If you have anything negative to say, please take it elsewhere.  Thank you.

02-19-2010 aka Brad in HD Goodness!

My HD Camera Finally Arrived! ^_^

Woo-hoo!  Shot a new vlog in HD, gotta edit it, but until then, feast your eyes on Brad in HD!  ^_^

Doncha just love the big ol' hairy Robin Williams arms coming atcha to gitcha?! LOL!

Pit & Pit's Friend

Pit & Pit's Friend 02-17-2010

I have a Pit in my stomach

that will not go away

it's gnawing, chewing, eating,

and I think it's here to stay

That Pit brought a Friend

to hang out in my head

to fill it full with vicious doubts

and things left unsaid

I once was at peace

before the Pit and its Friend

now it's all I have inside

and I don't know when it will end

Will the Pit and its Friend

devour me whole?

Will I ever have that peace again

and that calmness to my soul?

I'll have to learn patience

I'll have to sit and wait

I'll have to put my trust again

in the fickle hands of fate.

Oh, Pit and Pit's Friend

Enjoy your buffet

I'm not sure I care right now

I'm not sure of what to say

I know it will all pass

It always seems to go

But for fuck's sake, Pit and Pit's Friend,

why do you eat so slow?!

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I've always been emotionally self-destructive with the path of least resistance,
so now I have to try the tour of hardships and see if I prevail.
Wish me luck, wish me love.  ^_^

truehrt

True Heart (truehrt) 02-12-2010

I've never had such wonderfulness

such passion for life

such a warming embrace

I’ve never experienced full-on blissness

such joy running rife

such a fast beating pace

I’ve never met a heart so true

so precious to hold

so strong an enthrall

I’ve never known one like you

so endearing and bold

so easy to fall

~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Happy Valentine's Day weekend, everyone!  ^_^

Texas Sized Snow in Texas?! o_0

You read that right.  Snow.  In Texas.  TEXAS!  I'm not talking about a light dusting or little flakes; I'm talking HUGE ass cluster-flakes (a cousin of the cluster-fuck).  Everything was covered in white this morning!  It was weird.  It was like I was transported to Bizzaro Texas.  It's just not right.  Not right at all.  I used to LOVE this weather; the cold, the dreary, the miserable, but ever since I turned thirty and found a source of real happiness (I might touch on that later, but if you're clever enough, you might be able to just guess it) now I want the sun, the warmth, hell I'd even love to go to a beach!  Yeah, you read right!  Me!  On a beach!  Who would've thought it?!  Not I!  So, yeah, I am SO over this cold and gloom.  I want the sun!  Not too much, at least not yet... I burn easily.  >_<

In other news, I have volunteer duty at the theatre this Saturday from 6:00pm to 11:00pm, but it isn't for the usual usher duty.  I will be assisting with the annual Spotlight Gala silent auction!  I really wanted to go to this because I donated a signed copy of my book to the auction and I'm really curious as to how much it might go for!  ^_^  The tickets are $150, so I'm VERY thankful that the theatre manager requested that I help out!  I hope I get to find out who snags my book up and for how much!  This is exciting!  ^_^

If you want to know more about the WaterTower Theatre, please visit: WaterTowerTheatre.org.  They are always looking for donations and volunteers and you would be helping to support the arts, which is the best cause that I know of!  ^_^

Dallas ComiCon 2010!!! ^_^

Be sure to watch this intro, first!  ^_^




No actual humans were harmed by sheep during filming of these videos.

No Theatre Tonight. :-(

So, the rain has kept me from going to volunteer at the theatre.  >_<  Dammit!

Well, even though I could not do that, I did find something productive to do with my night!  I made a GIF!!!  ^_^

I was talking with Steph, the roomie, about how while I was watching the first three seasons of Xena: Warrior Princess, I counted at least twenty times that Xena would take a drink, grab a torch/candle, & then spit fire at the baddies.  I told her that I thought it was really groovy that Lucy Lawless did the stunt herself & was giving her props for it.  Steph wondered if she tried to bring that talent over to Battlestar Galactica, as well, as the only fire breathing model of Cylon.  :-P

So, inspired by all of that, we thought up what it would be like to have Xena & D'Anna merge.

I present to you...

D'Xenna: Warrior Cylon!!!

(BTW, yeah, that's a link you have to click.  ^_-)

Poor Boomer.  LOL!  ^_^

01-27-2010 aka Water Tower Theatre